What No One Can See

Who I Have Become                                                  http://timeoftrouble.webs.com/whoiam.htm

No matter what our outward appearance and words may be, only Elohim [God] who is everywhere always knows all things so deeply, that He already knows more about each individual than they know of themselves; and that is because of His unlimited wisdom and knowledge which is also fully aware of what the actual intent of our heart genuinely and truly is; and most hearts are totally opposite from what their tongue releases in words, therefore it's as if the billions who believe in Yehovah Elohim [God] are so full of love through words, but have empty glacier like hearts showing their true colors that cannot be hid from Elohim no matter what their lips may say a thousand times.

Also become aware that God's name in not God -- for there are many including the God of this world that deceives all minds. Want truth?




There is very little steady employment here in the Philippines, and what work can be got pays little. An average amount is about 250 peso a day or less than $5, yet this man with only one leg grabbed the chance to just earn anything possible. He is using a root cutter and rock buster to make digging easier.

This woman of 81 years still works her little cornfield, and she also has a root cutter that keeps the plow being pulled from getting caught. These children live up in the mountains in a one room bamboo hut with their dad preparing some roots to boil for eating with rice.

My greatest wants are just the financial way of doing things for others, but when I can't even do for my wife, it only hurts me as in neglecting others even though I want a good job as a welder/mechanic or many hands on trades so badly.

This woman cannot walk, therefore her life is pretty much all that you see. I wish that I had a huge box of the old Etcha Sketch plastic drawing boxes just for giving to people with nothing to do along with other little tidbits of just anything because I have learned through these past years that nothing to do can really be extremely hard on the body and mind -- especially when through my past years I became used to the interstates and driving thousands of miles while pulling my 5th wheel camper as my hotel on wheels to shutdowns in many different parts of the country working 12 hours a day seven days a week; and then leaving the USA on a one way ticket in 2006 going to a new life of hunger and many hardships with absolutely no life other than the same square mile for over seven years with no existence other than learning Yehovah God's truth with Him as my only teacher while living within over 7000 islands my wife and I can't even see via ferry being inexpensive.

Below is Mylene's kindergarten in 2009

Just some really special little kids that I would love to do things for with their smiles being the greatest possible reward any human being can ever receive. If I was a man of wealth my joys would be just always doing what I could for others everywhere because making someone else happy makes me and my wife happy also. If only this world of billion and millionaires knew that whatever they have cannot be taken with when they die, and that it shall perish regardless -- they would be using it to benefit many as possible, rather than themselves.

This man is near 90, and he really wanted to earn some money, so for about 4 dollars he helped me with some carpenter work. 

Another with needs, and they are many on the streets of Dumaguete; some without legs, arms, hands and other deformed body parts, so they just do the best they can and never complain.

Age matters not, if they can walk, so just do what needs doing such as this load on his head of kang kong food for baboi or pig in English.

Just friendly local people hard at work in their roofless wall less laundry room; and one day by God's grace I will be able to print and frame this picture to give them as a gift that they will truly cherish. It was about seven years ago that I took this picture.

My, prior to her health causing her to stop teaching, in 2015 also was involved in girl scouts among very many activities with children.

In the schools here, there are no maintenance men, janitors or anyone at all for upkeep other than the children with sweepers, what the teachers can do along with just anyone who is willing to help. When a classroom needs work, the teachers and their husbands paint, clean and repair what they can with their own funds. 

This is the school c/f or comfort room {out house} for children.

And there is not even any water that runs inside them. In all of the uncountable times I go to the school all of the kids just love me, so we talk, laugh and they ask questions just because I am viewed as a rich American. All I ever want to do is things for the kids like running some PVC for water and using a pressure washer for clean up and an airless paint sprayer, or even building some kind of playground that they have not, but I am lucky just to have a roof and rice to eat, so I can do nothing but dream. But my hearts intent tells only truth that can hide nothing. 

The vehicle behind this little girl is an easy ride that goes back and forth between Dumaguete and Bacong. The cost for the full ride is 10 peso or 20 cents and the little van can hold up to ten people. Its a stop and go drive because people get on and off, so to own one can make about 500 peso a day or less than ten dollars, but at least its some income that I have had no way of making for years now. Plus if you don't drive those easy rides, you can rent them out for 300 per day or six dollars. The cost of a decent one is about $2500. 

One thing about kids in most places is that they are just happy, but sadly there are just to many places in this world with to many problems through wars, rebels, violence, hunger, terrible child abuse in many ways, and diseases for even children to be happy. 

My wife and I as a couple with 18 years difference in age both really love children because of their innocence, energy, thoughts actions and needs; therefore we often talk of adopting because so many are in a bad way and without parents, but when we ourselves are also, how can we properly raise a child without basic needs and frustrated minds? My wife could and really wants to adopt, but I am just not that comfortable when I have so little. And because of this messed up world today through human rule, no children anywhere are raised and brought up in the ways they should grow; and the result is our civilization you see today with no roots on very unstable ground. But soon after the coming years of extremely bad times -- will come the everlasting good times with the only ruler being Elohim's kingdom, and that is all we as human beings have that we can look forward to, yet billions of Christians do nothing - just as the five foolish virgins in Matthew 25 - thus will not be as firstfruits regarding Yehovah God's kingdom with the times of the end coming upon this entire human race.

This woman earns her money by making big rocks into small stones with her hands and a hammer; and on a good day she can fill up to eight of those white sacks which brings her 200 peso or less than $4 for a hard days work. And she has been doing it for twenty years with little else that she can do because she is completely blind. With today's modern technology, Lazar surgery and only God knows what else, she perhaps could easily regain her sight for a small cost; and if I had the funds I would be the first to help her with only billions of others in line that also need help.

One day this big old tree just decided it was time to lay down and rest, and one full year later it was still in the same spot because the city workers and funds are few. The little store is a bake shop of which there are very many of everywhere because bread, rice and fish are the main foods with a variety of local veggies. 

These two people are the owners of the small bake shop, and now it has been about seven years since I took this picture of them that I always wanted print; and being the man died last year from cancer, these photos would be a shocking surprise for his wife. So when God's makes a way I will them put into a homemade bamboo frame and give it to her as a gift. My wife and I have a printer, but no ink because ink costs more than the printer. 

Through the years I have become greatly loved by kids and just people everywhere because as time passes people can only see ones goodness.

Very many times as I have walked to the little open markets for small needs like rice I always take mental note of how many kids I pass, usually about 15, so at the store I will always when possible get a about 20 lollipops just to give out on my return walk, and just giving something so small to a child brings on a smile like giving a thousand dollars to an adult because they are just very thankful children who are very real in their hearts, so their joy and smiles are my greatest reward. My wife and I both love doing things for others and always have whenever possible no matter how small it may be, and we always want to do more for many, but sadly can't do much.   

At the end of 2008 my wife's mom and dad came to visit us from a different island in the Philippines where they live. They are now about 80, have no income, and are just the kindest people one could ever meet, and Joshua and Clarita have very much faith even though nothing in life of any value whatsoever. Here they are just sewing what they have to wear.  

In December Mylene and I went by ferry to visit her mom and dad in her home town where she had not been for seven years. This is her father at the back door opening of his home where my wife grew up.

Joshua's Harley with a sidecar.  

Home sweet home for many who just accept what is while still having belief in God through faith.

The condition of the home my mother and father in law have lived in over 50 years is falling down with many roof leaks as an added bonus, yet they never complain. Of the less than $75 per month my wife gets as a teacher through direct deposit, she always sends any amount possible to her mom and dad, but so far this year she has not even been able to do that because we are barely getting by ourselves. It was through another teachers loan on top of all her others that we were able to go and visit, and when we returned home I posted some pictures and just asked for any help whatsoever for my wife's parents while feeling certain through faith that some help would come there way as in just twenty dollars a month, but it never did just as it never does for my wife and I.

I don't speak to complain, judge, accuse or anything else, I only speak as God leads to show all what He sees in this world of religion full of lip love, praise and glory to Him as God almighty while being within a deceived world of darkness that can't even see their own massive storms approaching because they walk not and do not as written. James 1:22-25, 2:14-26

The home you briefly viewed above is where we ended up having to live because of Mylene's health; yet were able to make it livable through the sale of our lot and home.






Moses did not choose Yehovah Elohim, it was He that chose Moses. Abram did not choose Elohim, Elohim chose Abram. Jacob who was Abram's promised name was changed to Israel because it was God that chose him for a very specific purpose. So Israel was a man and not a country; therefore what's clear as day and easy to understand in the words of Yehovah God is that the birthright blessings past down through Abraham's seed became the great nation promised in Genesis 12 which is the USA. 

Jeremiah was chosen by God before he was even formed in the womb. Paul who was a great persecutor of Christians was also chosen by God on the road to Damascus. David was also chosen by God; and the whole point is that it is God chooses who pleases Him by what only He can see within their heart which has nothing to do with the way people of this world judge everyone else by what they can see on the outside with through their own thought and wrong lead from the god of this world with great psychological powers over all other than those few chosen. John 15:19

Moses killed an Egyptian, David laid with a married woman, got her pregnant, and then committed the per-meditated murder of her husband Uriah. Jeremiah asked God if He was a liar, Paul not only did things he did not want to do, but before he was even chosen he allowed the deaths of many believers. Peter denied even knowing Yeshua three times when he had been caught by those being a part of His crucifixion.

At this time all Elohim is seeking are those chosen to become as firstfruits within His kingdom; and firstfruits are those with hearts and the faith to overcome the god of this world because it is only those who will be worthy to reign with Christ as teachers, kings, priests or whatever their spiritual gifts may be for permanent placement within the government of Yehovah. Isaiah 9:6-7

Just ask yourself what good a world of believers with no love for others beyond empty words would be to Yehovah as leaders and teachers in His kingdom -- when they themselves could not even be taught through His words in the Holy Bible that were written for their instruction?  

My spiritual education began over twenty years ago, but Moses had eighty years of life's education prior to his 40 years of leading Israel in the wilderness, so just to reach his level of knowledge will take me another 60 years; and then I need another 40 of hands on experience with a rebellious people just as this world today. So says Yeshua wrongly called Jesus Christ, but who believes our creator for His every word? Most certainly not the religions of man that believe what man falsely teaches as the blind leading the blind with no love in their hearts for others that Father God looks for; and He weighs us all by our actions. 1 Samuel 2:3

What version of the Bible do you use? Because they all have some corruption.


We all have faults and we all have needs, therefore I just do the best that I can do in faith through Elohim’s lead with a great sadness being that only few will hear truth prior to the beginning of sorrows coming upon this entire human race.

Because the words of our Lord Yeshua are pure and refined, look to only them and never man with Proverbs 1:22-32 being the many with verse 33 as the few.

The pure and absolute truth of matters concerning knowledge of the Holy One which is the fear of the Lord all depends of just what Yehovah gives us according to our works; and that is because we can gain nothing ourselves or through man, therefore this world of religion who does not like me is because I am not one of them just exactly as 'The Word' said in John 15:19.

Therefore rather than boast as they judge me, I know only what Elohim gives me which is as nothing when compared with some of the extremely high levels of intelligence in this deceived world through the religions of man; and that is because the prideful wisdom of man with the spirit of man are to themselves geniuses, but to Elohim [God] the spirit of man has not His Spirit, therefore does not even know Him.

Yehovah God chose Ezekiel and gave him a message to deliver - and even told him that all the worldly scorpions [church] would not hear or like him, yet Ezekiel just did what he had been told to do. Read Ezekiel chapter two with you as part of the church, and me with a message that you don't want to hear. 

Over nine years ago God placed me in the Philippines with no money, no life and no where to go other than to only Him through His words with many years of hardships that only increased my faith. And it is only when we grow at a steady rate through faith that turns into such a total dependence upon our creator, that there are no longer any words to describe what cannot be seen or felt because its a blind faith which has become as my only fuel with His words as my only blood flow for life itself; and added to those words are only the pure facts that there have been many times since I was 12 years old that I should have become very dead. So when it comes to Elohim [God] and His purpose, nothing is by chance, thus in Yehovah's time there will be someone somewhere who can relate well with the words in 1 Corinthians 2:13, but until that time, most all who read what I write/share will remain as the words of God in verse 14. 

Yehovah also knew that I could not in any way make it in a foreign country by myself, so He supplied me with a wife who is eighteen years younger, full of very strong faith, zero vices and was untouched by man at 34 when we met over nine years ago. When we have no food to eat, she prays daily and so do I, plus we also pray together. When evil people treat her in evil ways, she prays for God to correct them - and her last prayer for God to correct someone gave that person a stroke. As of this original writing from years ago, she has gotten so many teacher loans that she can get no more, and her borrowed money is because I have never been able to earn any to assist in our very small needs other than one time lasting only 4 months out of almost ten years.

And its not as if I have not tried in many ways through the years, it's just that Yehovah God put me exactly where I am for the purpose of building strong faith while telling believers what they refuse to believe. 

We all have some hopes and dreams; and mine are of this rehabilitation program that not only drug users and alcoholics need, but anyone in this world who wants a taste of what life will be like in God's kingdom while they are also being spiritually prepared to stand firm in the coming 31/2 years of affliction - followed by 31/2 years great tribulation with a very strong faith that totally depends on Yehovah for all things through the elimination of man and his fleshly ways which only bring a false light that hides darkness.

https://dochub.com/timesoftrouble  Plenty food for thought on humanity, and our coming downfall being the worst timesoftrouble ever on this planet.

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